Wednesday, August 8, 2012

My Angel

Growing up my Dad was not a big part of my life (as far as I can remember at least). He was in and out of our lives a lot. In my heart, and knowing his heart, I know he didn't stay away because he didn't love us, I think it was because he was lost in his own life and didn't know where he belonged. But he found his way back. The memories I have of my Dad are few and far between, and the ones I do remember are not all good ones. Regardless my Dad made a HUGE comeback, and my life without him these days would not be complete. It was when I was around 15 that my Dad had a more permanent role in my life. And as I have continued to grow up, he has been involved in my life, learning about me and taking the time to stay in touch with me. I appreciate that more than my words could ever express. It truly is the little things in life that matter most because a phone call from my Dad calling just to see how my new job is going means more to me than an hour long phone call about this and that. Or he calls because he is worried about another trip I am going on, or something that I am taking part in that worries him. He calls just to make sure I am okay. I believe my dad is my angel here on earth. When nobody else knows I am upset, he does. He can sense it in my voice. I remember one time I was suffering from a broken heart. I was trying not to let it show, and went about my day as usual. And I was walking past him, and he asked what was wrong and I said nothing, but still, he knew that my heart was hurting. It goes that way with all my sisters, if any of us are going through something, he somehow senses it and calls one of us to make sure the other one is okay. If I had to describe to someone what unconditional love was, I would tell them it was the love that my Dad has for me. My Dad has gone through hell and back and then some, but his life today is proof of the oustanding, strong, and resilient  man that he is and I am so happy and blessed that God has had his back this entire time, because if my Dad did not have God in his heart, I do not believe he would be where he is today. So thank you Lord, for taking care of my Dad, for being his light in his darkest of days, for loving him unconditionally and for blessing us by allowing him to be our father here on earth.