Boy oh Boy... Literally.

There comes a time, or maybe a few sporatic times, when a single gal is just ready to lose that title. She is ready to move on from the bar randoms, the guys she gave her number out to when she really didnt want to and even more the guys she wanted to and never heard from. She is over the getting dressed up just a little more than usual... cause you never know who you might meet. She is done being the girl who is jealous of the cute couple holding hands through the mall. She is so over being that "girl you have to meet" to all her friends that are in relationships. As much as its apprecaited, it doesnt always feel great to be the girl who is continuously set up with the wrong guys. She wants love. She wants to be somebodies last thought before they fall asleep. She wants to light up when she sees a missed call from him. She wants to have someone pick her when ladies night is over, and laugh at her silly comments after one too many glasses of vino. The only guy she needs in her life is the one who proves he needs her in his. Dont get me wrong, there are plenty of things to love about the single life, just as there are about being in a relationship, but at the end of the day, a girl just really wants someone special to come home to> As a single girl, the hope of someone eventually coming along is just not enough.

Nicky Freeman

As I was completing my nightly ab routine, I came across a show on TLC called "My 40 Year Old Son". It reflected the lives of 2 people who suffer from an unknown condition that causes them to age very slowly. They age 1 year in every 4. Nicky Freeman is a 40 year old man trapped in the body of a 10 year old boy. Something about the way he was, how innocent and precious he is just made my heart melt. Nicky is blind and cannot talk. He spoke the usual words you learn when you are just beginning to talk around the age of one, like Mommy and Daddy... but soon after that, he never spoke a word again. There was a particular segment of the show were Nicky was listening to music and dancing, I wanted to jump off the floor and into the T.V to give Nicky a giant hug. I wonder if he knows what is happening to him. Is his mind like a 10 year olds? Because he cannot talk, we have no idea of knowing the capacity that his brain has. Either way, I believe that he knows how loved he is and how to love in return. Nicky, his Mother Kayleen and younger brother Llyod, take a trip to Florida all the way from Australia to see a doctor who thinks that he can help the family get some answers as to why Nicky is the way he is. They discovered that Nicky's pituitary glad is not in the correct place, and that is why his body is aging at a slow pace. After all is said and done in Florida, its time to go back home, and as Kayleen thanks the doctor for FINALLY giving her some much needed answers and closure, its Nicky's turn to say goodbye to the doctor. So Nicky slowly walks up to the doctor, he grabs Nicky's hand and instead, Nicky sits on the doctors lap and rests his head on his shoulder for a nice, long hug. That moment brought tears me my eyes because Nicky cannot speak the words "Thank you", he has to show you, and I believe that is more important than the words themselves.

Watching this show made me think about my life, and the most simple things that I take for granted everyday. Being able to walk, see, talk. Things that my body just naturally does, like age. Some might not consider that a good thing, but in Nicky's case, that is all his family wished for, was for him to be the way that most people are as they grow. How many times have you said as you are holding a newborn in your arms..."I just want you to stay this little forever"? I know I have, and for Kayleen, she wished the complete opposite. I need to start ackowledging the blessings I have in my life and in my health. So many people in the world are suffering from threatning diseases, losing loved ones because of them and so many other things that I could not even imagine let alone actually having to deal with them in my own life. Thank you Lord, for all my blessing, and I pray that from here on out, I will not take these blessings for granted and I pray that you heal the broken, bless those who are sick with great health and continue to see us through any struggles we may encounter. Amen!

"I make my own sunshine"

Simple things make me happy. Like a commercial I saw that had an amazing song to accompany it. Its called "Sunshine" by Alyssa Bonagura.

"It don't matter if it's raining, nothing can phase me, I make my own sunshine". I instantly fell in love with those words and it holds so true to my own life. I like to believe that I am a very optimistic person, and even more, I would love for that quality to rub off onto those around me. I know optimism does not come wasy, but it's not impossible.

My best friend lives by this saying.... "Things turn our best for those who make the best of the way things turn out". Enough said right?

I want everything that I believe, everything that I say and do to reflect OneLove.

"The ones who are crazy enough to think they can change the world are the ones that do"